Sunday, 14 March 2010


im so fucking upset right now.
why does he wanna talk to her again?

Saturday, 13 March 2010

favorite new artists.

okay so i recently discovered and amazing artist!
Mark Ryden, his work is so surreal and dark and amazing!
im in love with most of his work, especially the "Blood" series he did.

Another amazing artists i found who does a similar style of work.
Ray Caeser, His work isn't as dark as Mark Ryden's but its stil amazing.

Tuesday, 9 March 2010


so im thinking im going to start painting when im back home.
i wanna do some Robert Rauschenberg and Tracey Emin style work, maybe sell some of it on ebay, WHO KNOWS :D
ill give it a shot!

here is a sample of Robert Rauschenberg's work

& Tracey Emin

i cant wait to get painting!

Sunday, 7 March 2010


so cute :)

tell me lies tell me sweet little lies!

since when did telling white lies become an okay thing to do!?
id rather someone be honest with me from the beginning, regardless to weather it upsets me or not!
id rather be upset for 5 minutes then get over it, than have someone i love lie to me.

if you tell lies, your gonna get found out in the end.
thats why i dont tell lies to the people i care about :)

Wednesday, 3 March 2010

best youtube find!

okay so this is one of my most favorite youtube videos EVER!
its pretty dark but i fucking love it!

id love to make a short film like this.
so if anyone is interested in a little project, let me know :)


okay so this song is beautiful & reminds me of john :)

one song that describes me.

If i had to pick one song that describes me, it would have to be this little gem!

The Dresden Dolls - Girl Anachronism

you can tell
from the scars on my arms
and the cracks in my hips
and the dents in my car
and the blisters on my lips
that I'm not the carefullest of girls

you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that are breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking
but it's just the temperature
then again
if it were any colder i could disengage
if i were any older i would act my age
but i don't think that you'd believe me
it's not the way I'm meant to be
it's just the way the operation made me

and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple years too late
and I've got some issues to work through
there i go again
pretending to be you
that i have a soul beneath the surface
trying to convince you
it was accidentally on purpose

...i couldnt be bothered posting all the lyrics lol!


a couple of my favourtie songs :)

cancer bats - pneumonia hawk

municipal waste - born to party

horrorpops - walk like a zombie

Alexisonfire - This Could Be Anywhere in the World

TRC - define cocky

deez nuts - like theres no tomorrow

do want!

Things i want :)

This is the cutest bong ever :)

fittest shoes in the world :)

i need this!

limited edition freddy nikes!!!

bioshock 2, i cant afford it yet :(

Tuesday, 2 March 2010

i cant sleep.

its 07:32 and im still awake :(

so im going to do a blog about my top 5 loves and hates!


1. xbox - i havnt been playing as much since i got with John, i need to get back on track! but yeah xbox is amazing :)

2. weed - dont judge me for smoking weed, it doesnt ruin your state of mind or cause any harm! you cannot get addicted to it, if you mix it with tobacco then its the tobacco you get addicted to! but yeah i smoke it everyday, its just a well nice feeling.

3. zombies - iv loved zombies since i was little, i dont know why, they are easily the best monster going!

4. movies - i love movies, sometimes i just sit in and watch like 10 movies in a day. horror is obviously my favorite, but im also obsessed with disney :)

5. John - he has changed my life. i had a pretty big breakdown before christmas, and i wouldnt leave the house or talk to anyone. i got stuck on anti depressants and just hated life. then john came along and just changed everything. im so lucky to be with him, he is gorgeous, funny and likes the same things as me. He even puts up with my paranoia and understands why i find it hard to trust people. i have fallen head over heels in love with this boy, and i hope it lasts forever.


1. liars - i hate liars with a passion. there is no point in telling lies, someone always ends up getting hurt, and they get found out in the end anyway.

2. spiders - fuck off you 8 legged freaks.

3. internet players - boys who think its okay to flirt with other girls online, its called emotional cheating and is a horrible thing to do. an example of this would be; a guy could be telling his girlfriend he is madly in love with her, then on myspace/facebook be telling some dirty sket that he wants to be with her and he loves her and that he will give her petrol money to come and get him. ITS DISGUSTING!

4. tomatoes - fruit or vegetable? I DONT CARE! they make me wanna boff!

5. being fat - i know im fat, and i dont take offense to being called fat. but i hate being fat, im disgusting and i dunno why anyone would ever wanna be with a fat person lol. so yeah i cant wait until im slimmer & then i can feel better about myself!